On Christmas day 2019 I loaded my shotgun and had a few hours where I really thought about killing myself for the first time in my life. My sister in Texas talked to me and by the next day I knew it was time to change; of course, at first I thought this meant trying to get her back.

My name is Jason Amos, I’m in Phoenix AZ. In November 2019 my stbx wife filed for divorce with no warning, I got divorce papers and a protection order 3 days before my 46th birthday. This forbid me from any contact with my children upon threat of arrest for one year.

I was drinking heavily at the time and was generally a weak man (I had just gotten fired from a job).

She had told me “I love you but I’m not in love with you” and I remember specifically typing this in Google; I originally found videos on “how to get your ex back” but I also found “The Rational Male” by Rollo Tomassi. This was the start of covid so all the gyms were closed, so I listened to Rational Male while walking and exercising daily. It was an amazing revelation of things I knew at one time but had forgot I used to read Mystery Method and The Game back in the 90s before I was married.

The more I learned the more interested I became, so it didn’t take long to find Richard Coopers YT channel which I liked, and I think on a Rule Zero or some earlier video like that I saw Paul and looked at his YT channel.

Something about the way Paul communicated really resonated with me; he has a very calm and collected way of describing intersexual dynamics with a focus on female psychology that at the time I really knew nothing about. I never studied psychology but I think it is very interesting, and its obvious Paul has a passion for psychology. The meditation and EMDR and other things are also interesting although I need to implement more.

When I heard Paul was going to have a course I knew I had to sign up. He really helped me through the most difficult time in my life, and this information and material is literally life changing and could be life saving for some men out there. I’ve learned a lot more about self respect, and discipline, and taking care of yourself. One of the most important things I’ve learned is to have healthy boundaries, and to let people go who do not respect those boundaries - whether it’s a friendship, romantic relationship or even family members.

I hope that is enough of a testimonial. I’m really looking forward to meeting you guys and other guys in the group; I feel like I’m really making friends with some of these guys. Even at 48 years old I’m excited about my future.